Though it's Christmas, I refuse to write anything about it. What I will I do instead is to share to you the very first time I went out to cruise for someone to fuck my ass.

That was six years ago, I was underage and was still in high school. That time, I only had one gay friend, who unfortunately was on denial. So, I had no choice but to cruise alone. Then I found myself along B&^i@cio St., outside a beauty parlor seating just beside a stall of a sidewalk vendor.

It was the perfect place I thought. A block away is a school and across the street is a jeepney stop. And yes, I wasn't wrong. Within a few minutes of waiting, I spotted a beautiful prey just some steps away from where I am seating. I starred at him and he starred back. Our eyes meeting each other signaled what we both want.

He introduced himself as university student and that he was out to meet a friend to borrow some cash (hint?). The conversation went along until we found ourselves inside some cheap inn a couple of blocks away and the rest was history.

Before I end this little sharing let me include in this post a poem written by Rody Vera whose work was included in a book entitled 'Ladlad2, an Anthology of Philippine Gay Writing' edited by J. Neil Garcia and Danton Remoto.